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Old 06-17-2014, 01:08 PM
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It's been awhile for me Tami, but I know how you feel. not so much with Ruby because she came to our family so late and our relationship was conflicted, but Maggie and my brother Sean.... It is coming up to the year anniversary of his death and I feel as though I am losing him and her all over again.

It does get easier, yes. BUT there are still days and moments when I feel as though I will collapse with the hurt, fear and disbelief.

The fear comes from taking in my own mortality as I get older and folks around me are either dying or getting cancer. Mixed in there is just how fragile life is even to the healthiest of us. I look at my son and husband and my breath catches in my throat.

I am doing some work and reading to process it all, but it is a process. Yesterday I was a mess when I came home....just had to let it all out.

Did it feel as though Sydney was really there? I have had dreams about my dogs, but they weren't really there. Then I have had dreams when I could just tell that it was them and they were there with me.

When you say "you woke up just in time to see her jump off the bed", did you wake up in your dream or did you actually see her while you were awake.

I think these things that happen to folks when they are awake give clues to how evolved or open...something that the people are.

And Jessie Girl....WOW!

The only dog who has ever come to me in a dream was my first dog Stevie. What a wonderful gift that was. I have a teensy resentment that the other dogs haven't visited yet. I am sure it is telling that they haven't. I don't think I have enough peace and quiet in my mind just yet...even in sleep.

A book you might find helpful is Animal in Spirit, by Penelope Smith.

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Old 06-17-2014, 01:24 PM
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Did it feel as though Sydney was really there? I have had dreams about my dogs, but they weren't really there. Then I have had dreams when I could just tell that it was them and they were there with me.

When you say "you woke up just in time to see her jump off the bed", did you wake up in your dream or did you actually see her while you were awake.

I think these things that happen to folks when they are awake give clues to how evolved or open...something that the people are.

A book you might find helpful is Animal in Spirit, by Penelope Smith.

Tara
I was definitely awake seeing her jump off the bed. Small sidebar: I randomly have night terrors (typically due to stress). If anyone is familiar with those - they are VERY real and you are awake for part of it - more often than not - jumping out of bed and dealing with whatever it is in the terror that needs to be dealt with. So - given those experiences - I can most definitely say I was awake (but it wasn't a night terror - it was awesome).

I'm going to download that book.

And agreed on Jessegirl - WOW!
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Old 06-17-2014, 02:04 PM
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Tami... oh how I can related. I remember I would always 'hear' Abby after she was gone. I would wake up and I know that she was barking, and it was always be at the same time... 6:00 am. Many months of this, but somehow it was very comforting, to know that they are not completely gone.

Strange... I can still 'feel' her presence, but no longer the barking. What I find strange as well, is that some days you think you are doing great... and WHAM, it just hits you.

Thinking of you.

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Old 06-17-2014, 03:35 PM
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so sorry Tami. I too cry every time I read the rainbow bridge poem and get tears in my eyes every morning when I say hello to the picture of forbes on my desk. It's unfortunately never not sad, it just doesn't linger
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Old 06-18-2014, 07:39 AM
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{{{Hugs}}}
I'm home this week. Ali's trees are encroaching on her space. Hoping to trim them back so I can visit. There are those that just stay in your heart forever.
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Old 06-19-2014, 09:12 PM
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Tami & Sophie,
I am so terribly sorry I didn't see this post sooner. I went back a few pages to start reading from your original post, and have been quietly crying for you snuggled up to my Bazzle dog. I can only imagine how difficult it was to let her go .
What an amazing dog she was. Teenage agility girl, plus paramount in her community services as a therapy dog. It clearly shows how much you were all ment for each other, as well as the love you all shared.
Deepest belated sympathies to you and your family.
Sending cyber hugs your way,

Audrey & Bazzle
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Old 06-30-2014, 05:37 PM
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PLEASE DON'T THINK I'M OFF MY ROCKER (BECAUSE I ALREADY THINK THAT)

When we went to Soaphie's eye appointment today I had to use the restroom so I gave Soaphie to the vet tech and said I would be right back. Was standing in the hallway waiting for the bathroom to be vacated and a cat leaned it's head out of a doorway just down the hall from where I was standing and looked at me and let out a HUGE MEOW! I looked at the cat and immediately had goosebumps and the voice in my head said "THAT IS SYDNEY!". I was taken aback and thought - I'll call to it to see if it will come to me....it did! He/She came over and was meowing and staring at me, wanting to be petted. It was a gray cat with eyes that were huge and were a slightly different color from one another. He/She was beautiful. I then was able to use the bathroom and the cat sauntered back down the hall glancing at me as it went back into whatever room it came from.

So I have been thinking about this cat all day. I'm SO NOT A CAT PERSON - pretty much "anti-cat" unless they snuggle like a dog. (sorry cat people ). I called the vets office to ask what the story was behind this cat and I guess it's the office cat and not for adoption....the lady said "we know other folks that have cats for adoption" and I said - no, not interested, that one in your office is special - she agreed.

Throughout Sydney's life I always told her she was more of a kitty. I have to say I'm totally shocked at the emotion that came over me seeing that cat - never in a million years did I ever think I would be feeling like that.

Now I'm thinking I'm crazy.

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Old 06-30-2014, 05:45 PM
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PLEASE DON'T THINK I'M OFF MY ROCKER (BECAUSE I ALREADY THINK THAT)

When we went to Soaphie's eye appointment today I had to use the restroom so I gave Soaphie to the vet tech and said I would be right back. Was standing in the hallway waiting for the bathroom to be vacated and a cat leaned it's head out of a doorway just down the hall from where I was standing and looked at me and let out a HUGE MEOW! I looked at the cat and immediately had goosebumps and the voice in my head said "THAT IS SYDNEY!". I was taken aback and thought - I'll call to it to see if it will come to me....it did! He/She came over and was meowing and staring at me, wanting to be petted. It was a gray cat with eyes that were huge and were a slightly different color from one another. He/She was beautiful. I then was able to use the bathroom and the cat sauntered back down the hall glancing at me as it went back into whatever room it came from.

So I have been thinking about this cat all day. I'm SO NOT A CAT PERSON - pretty much "anti-cat" unless they snuggle like a dog. (sorry cat people ). I called the vets office to ask what the story was behind this cat and I guess it's the office cat and not for adoption....the lady said "we know other folks that have cats for adoption" and I said - no, not interested, that one in your office is special - she agreed.

Throughout Sydney's life I always told her she was more of a kitty. I have to say I'm totally shocked at the emotion that came over me seeing that cat - never in a million years did I ever think I would be feeling like that.

Now I'm thinking I'm crazy.

Tami
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Old 06-30-2014, 05:52 PM
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No don't tell yourself you are crazy!

That's what we tell our children and then we teach them to turn down the animals that talk to them or the intuition that we are all born with.

I am doing some reading on Buddism. I'm not sure how the logistics would work with the animal already having been born before Sydney's passing, but maybe she used the form for a few minutes to be with you.

How blessed you are to have been with her twice since she passed.

Haven't had a chance to post on Soaphie's thread, but have read along and been praying for both of you.

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Old 06-30-2014, 05:56 PM
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Wow, that's amazing! And no, you're so not crazy, there is so much out there we don't understand, I would have had goosebumps too. I have been thinking this: On the night my Bailey passed I went to put my daughter on the toilet before I went to bed. I lifted her from her bed, she was sound asleep. She then gently kissed me on the neck which she has never done before. At this time I thought how cute but a few nights ago I thought, hang on, maybe that was Bailey saying thank-you and reassuring me. Now that makes me think I am crazy, a dog taking over a humans body?!?! She is a very sweet girl so it could of been her, being her! But it has made me think, weird timing.
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